A couple of days after I jot down the last entry here, someone dear to us drew her last breath on earth. I was privileged to have had the chance to be with her to watch over her on her last journey. She was my mother in law.
I wouldn’t say that my relationship with her was smooth sailing. But the last few years had been rather good. She was diagnosed with a rare kind of blood disease or leukemia in October last year. Since then she was hospitalized a couple of times. Once for a fever that wouldn’t subside for a month or so. The second time was her last. Also for a fever and later on they found some abnormalities in her intestines and they opted for an operation. Twice. The third time she refused. After the second one she actually got a bit better that we didn’t expect that she would die so quickly. My husband and daughter went in for a visit, not expecting to see her on the verge of death. When they arrived there I was still in the office, oblivious of what was going on. When I arrived home I found out that they were all there in the hospital and I called for taxi. She died about an hour more or less after my arrival.
She was in our lives a lot and it was really tough to come to terms to accepting of her lost. We are moving on as she would have wanted that for us, but I am still sorry that she could not be with us for while longer. She loved my daughter a lot and growing up she helped take care of her. I would have wanted that she be among us to celebrate more of my daughter’s birthdays, her graduation, her wedding, her first child etc. But God has other plans for her.
Where ever you are Krisztina, thank you for everything that you have done for us. And we will make sure it will not be in vain.
“We are never ready to say goodbye forever even though we know it is part of life. This day our hearts are heavy for losing someone so special, but as we mourn your death, we also celebrate your life”