A couple of days after I jot down the last entry here, someone dear to us drew her last breath on earth. I was privileged to have had the chance to be with her to watch over her on her last journey. She was my mother in law.
I wouldn’t say that my relationship with her was smooth sailing. But the last few years had been rather good especially when she found someone special to her to spend her time with as she was happier. She was diagnosed with a rare kind of blood disease or leukemia in October last year. Since then she was hospitalized a couple of times. Once for a fever that wouldn’t subside for a month or so. The second time was her last which was also due to a prolonging fever. That was the time when the medical team had found some abnormalities in her intestines and they opted for an operation. They did it twice. By the third time she refused as had enough.
Now, interestingly, she actually got a bit better that we didn’t expect that things would take turn for the worst so quickly. My husband and daughter went in for a visit, not expecting to see her on her deathbed. When they had arrived, I was still working and oblivious of what was going on. After work, I got a call so I went over by taxi to the hospital. She died about an hour more or less after my arrival. I’m grateful that I had to be there to say goodbye.
She was in our lives a lot, so much so it was really tough to come to terms with her lost. We are moving on as she would have wanted that for us, but I am still sorry that she could not be with us for while longer. She loved my daughter a lot and growing up she helped take care of her. I would have wanted that she be among us to celebrate more of my daughter’s birthdays, her graduations, her wedding, her first child etc.
Where ever you are Krisztina, thank you for everything that you have done for us. I do believe that I was quite lucky to have you as mother in law.
“We are never ready to say goodbye forever even though we know it is part of life. This day our hearts are heavy for losing someone so special, but as we mourn your death, we also celebrate your life”